this one is supposed to be posted a couple of weeks ago... e wala e!!
ehmm... oo! mali ako! may kasalanan din ako? sbhn n n10ng malaki dn ang pagkakamali ko! ehmm.. oh syet!! ehmm.. putcha! masama akong tao! la nko mgawa hnd kna alam anong nais ko! hnd hnd hnd! ewan! ewaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!
err.. wla n dw kme ni kaloi??
msama pla akong tao..
tangenang pantasy toh!
anung nangyari?
nung tarsdi ngpnta kmeng intramuros.. tpos inaantay nmn cla keka dun s may g8 ng intramuros mlapit s mla. highskul.. mainit, mga isang dipa ang layu nya mula sa kinauupuan ko.. s katunayan e nkita p nga kme ng klsm8 dti ni keks at cnbeng mukha dw kmeng gag0! hnd kme naguusap mula smakay ng jeep n quiapo hnggng s pag dating nmn s intramuros.. e1 ko kung bkt? suplada dw ako! msama dw yata ako! nmn!!!!!
tpos.. oo aaminin ko! cnbe ko sknya
"umuwi kna kya?"
ehmm... mukha kcng nbabato n xa e!
hnd p xa umuwi! tpos nagyaya nkong mgpnta s balwarte de dilao.. tpos un! sbe nya mauna n dw ako.. e di nauna ako! tpos.. di n xa sumunod! nawala n xa bgla! nilamon n yta ng lupa?
tpos... aun n!
lumipas ang ilang araw.. lumipas ang mnthsary nmn.. di kme nagkaupas kht n s telepono man lamang..
dumating n ang sabado..
[aminin ko.. galit ako sknya nun! these past few day... he often stayed in our street with his tropa, which sucked because we werent able to talk to each other.. obviously.. di ako tambay? he also made a few promises which were not kept because he stayed out late and wasnt able to call because he and chunkie played billiards up to 1am.. i felt like being ignored, he would never think of how i felt.. he just wanted to have fun! dati nga mas inisip nya p ung galit nung mga tropa nya at halus hinayaan n nya akong magpunta s eastwood mag isa.. mxadong mahaba ung istorya.. kya di knlng isasama!]
sabado n nun!
ehmm.. nagpnta ako kla keka tpos nag uk kme.. aun!
paguwi nmn cnalubong kme ni praning at cnbng pu2nta dw cla kuya imbo tpos pu2nta dw c ewart..
c ewart nga lng nmn pla ung kras nmn ni keka nang mga panahon n un!
tpos aun! super tili at hagikgik kme ni keka n alam kong hnd tama kc mnthsry nmn nun ni kaloy at hellur! may boypren ako noh? dumating n cla! nagkataon e nagp-pc kme nla keka tpos cnendan ako ni ewart ng msg s frinstir sbe nya kras nya dw ako.. tpos aun! aun n umalis cla pro hnd nmn kme nagpansinan at nagkibuan maliban s suntok n inabot nya sken s braso... aun n!
nkatext ko dn xa knagabihan... pro mabilis lng, kmstahan? yus!
linggo n! may usapan kme ni ewart n prehas kme mag oonlyn ng 1pm.. nag onlyn n kme nla keka.. at aun! onlyn c deXter..
c deXter nmn ung tropa ng insan ko dun s may proj.4! sbe ni keka papabol dw! aus?
chinat nmn xa.. at e2 na! tok tok tok!! scabengier is now onlyn!
nagchat kme ng matagal tpos sbe nya kta dw kme ngyn? hellur! yoko umuwi ng gabi kc klangan kong magpagoodshot! tpos aun n! cla keka ang ngsbe n mkipgkta dw ako.. ok? aun n! 5pm dw s yellowcab s morayta! aun n!
ngkta n kme at ngkwn2han! ngkwn2han! ngwalkathon... may umamin... FUCK!
balik n tyo s gumugulo sken...
lam ko msama ung gnawa ko... at alam kong hnd ksalanan nla keka ung pki2pagkta ko sknya.. kc kung ayaw ko nmn... e ayaw ko tlga!!
nangyari n ang nangyari!
tingin ko iniisip ni kaloi e ang dahilan ng lahat ay c ewArt... ehmm... hnd!
malayo xa s ine-expect nmn nla keka na ewart!
sa amin nlng un kung anu ung dhilan! hnd xa masamang tao pero mron xang kaibang ugali n ngpa isip sken.. "xa n b yan? tangna gnyn pla xa?"
hnd nmn s cnicraan ko xa o cnsbe ko to kc nagkaproblema ako... hnd klng ngs2han ung gnawa ni ewart n pangli2gaw n wla nmn xang maibgay n dhilan kung bkt... aun s aking kalkulasyones chenes... mas magiging astig xang k tropa!
i'll never like him "like him" in a thousand billion gazillion light years!
his "bad boy" attitude pissed me off... waste of time? nah.. tropa un noh?
for some reason i was so turned off with how he acted.. how he spoke... and how he told stories.
he for some reason was even proud of using "bato" in a gig which was held in balwarte de dilao last july2
im not supposed to interefere with his personal addictions.. but why be proud? it just so turned me off.. but then he took back what he said and just said that he had no plans of using shabu again.. tama!!
sbe nya mahal nya ko?
hibang n xa! ne hnd p nga kme magkakilala noh? mdame xang cnsbe.. pawang khibangan lng dn... bka bangag??
wla akong ikinatuwa s mga cnbe nya! hnd nka2tuwa? nka2anek! ewn kba kung anung pumasok s kokote nya at pinagsa2be nya un!?
ay! isa lng ang cnbe nyang mdyo ikinatuwa ko..
"iba ung girlfriend s tropa.. ang tropa maaaring mkakita nyang khit saan.. ang girlfriend hnd mo bsta mapapalitan!"
oh well...
sa pagsa2bi ko nmn n2ng mga bagay n2.. hnd kna nmn maibabalik ung mga luhang umanoy tumulo s mga mata ni kaloi...
it wont make him feel better..
it wont make it easier for me to figure out the things to say... nor the things to do...
i for some reason even hided from kaloi when he saw me last night.. bka s sobrang hiya o ewn kba? bsta!
i cant think of anything... mental block shit!
kanikanina lng.. kakabigay lng ng u2l ko sken nung mga cD n hiniram sken ni kaloi..
at ang interpretasyon ko dun e...
he doesnt want to have any connections with me.. after all! he hates me now?
sorry xa! nsaken p ung new found glory nyng cd e!
i dont know if i still wnt to somehow get connected to0..
i dont know if it'll make him feel better.. or do i simply exist to make people's lives worse!
sbe nla mbilis dw akng mgsawa..
anung bsehan ang pnagmulan ng teoryang yan?
sa nangyaring ito... nawala n khit n ung friendship nlng nmn ni kaloi w/c i didnt want to happen in the first place.. the thing is.. this isnt supposed to happen in the first place!
kung hnd dhil s katarayan ko.. sna ok p kme!
e1 kba?
bukas tatambay ako s intramuros.. i wonder wuts out there.. somewhere! i hope its not totally goodbye.. after all.. we can still be friends? oh how i wish we can be friends!
Currently listening to: 33- coheed and cambria
Currently reading: wala
Currently feeling: hungry
